Depressed

Malam tadi berasa sungguh depressed... Rasa cam loser gila... He's so nearby, and yet so far away I couldn't reach to him... Sedih gila...

He's right in front of you... But you can't talk all you want, you can't joke around, you can't hug, you can't kiss, ah, heck, you can't even touch him... Kenapa tak boleh? Because you're worried that you might make him lose focus on work and hurt himself... After all, he has been working for more than 24hours non-stop, it is so easy to be distracted even with the slightest act. Kau tau tak apa rasanya? MACAM SAKAI, OK?? You're worried about him, but you worry more if you do something, and he ended up being hurt. So all you can do is worry from afar... It sucks. Real bad.

Perasaan jadi secret admirer pun tak macam ni. It's not even that close to the feelings I'm experiencing. It hurts so bad, so deep and I really don't like it. Don't like it at all...